Second Verse

In my last blog, we started looking at U2’s “I still haven’t found what I’m looking for”. As I had been listening to that song so much was revealed to me about life and the longing in our hearts. Today, I want to really look at the second verse of that song. Again, I find myself in that verse. See if you do too.The second verse goes like this;

I have kissed honey lips

Felt the healing in her fingertips

It burned like a fire

This burning desire

I have spoke with the tongue of angels

I have held the hand of a devil

It was warm in the night

I was cold as a stone

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

The first part of the verse definitely has to do with love. How many of us have felt if only we had a man or a woman to love and to love us our lives would be complete? We long for that burning desire. Don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with love, it is a beautiful thing. I have been married for eight years now and I love Mario so much. I am passionate for Him and He is for me.We love to be together. He is a gift and I am completely blessed to have him as my husband and best friend. But no matter how much Mario loves me and I love him, there is still a place in my heart he can’t fill. There have been seasons in my life that I felt alone and hurting even when he’s right there and he can’t fix it. He loves me and I love him but our love for each other isn’t perfect. I need more.

I see so many women who move from relationship to relationship searching for a love that will be completely fulfilling. In the process of that, many give parts of themselves away. Few find the man of their dreams, but even when some do, there is still something missing, something deep in the heart that can’t be fulfilled.

The second part of the verse talks about two exact opposites of the spectrum.One is the experience of something supernatural, heavenly. I grew up in church and have experienced some pretty powerful things. Miracles. Things that I knew without a shadow of a doubt were God’s hand at work. But I have to sadly admit, it is easy to get caught up and chase after those things. I have done it and I’ve seen many do it. I started desiring the miracles or the things of God instead of God himself. I would experience a miracle or a piece of heaven, and it would thrill me for quite sometime. But in the end, it did not satisfy. I’ve come to learn that those things were never meant too. Even still, when the novelty wears off, I’d most times pray for some other “experience,” when in reality, I needed God himself.

This often happened to Jesus. Many people followed after him to experience something amazing or to get something for themselves, when really Jesus was all about leading people to the Father.

The other experience can often be seen as a very desperate, dark and at times, selfish one. It is a decision that says I don’t care, I will do whatever it takes to fill this heart of mine, to numb the pain of life, anything to help me forget and rescue me from my circumstances. There are so many ways this looks. I have no doubt we’ve all done this at some point in our lives. Some things are definitely more harmful than others. In the beginning, it seems harmless, but in reality, it ends up hurting not just us, but those we love. In then end, it leaves us “cold as a stone.”

There truly is a place in each of our hearts that belongs only to God. We can try many things but not one of them can fill that place. Not one of them can satisfy that longing. Some may never understand this, while continuing on lives journey they will search and search but find they still haven’t found what they are looking for. I am so grateful for a loving God who is right there waiting.